An emotional memoir by a mother who shares the harrowing experience of losing her son to suicide. Brian was her first baby boy: from the very beginning, he was a quick learner who readily made friends. As a teenager and young adult, he grew into a talented artist and musician, who also had a facility for languages, loved food and travel. He lived life. In this emotional memoir, Brian?s mother tries to understand the sudden mental illness that took over Brian?s life and led to his suicide. She describes the failures of the systems that could have helped him. And she shares her efforts to heal?a difficult path that other grieving families know all too well.